“Whenever I call you friend, I begin to think I understand. Anywhere we are, you and I have always been, forever and ever. I see myself within your eyes, and that’s all I need to show me why. Everything I do, always takes me home to you. Forever and ever, now I know my life has given me more than memories. Day by day, we can see. In every moment there’s a reason to carry on”. So I was asked recently, what exactly am I looking for in my ideal, well, my “dream girl”?, and why haven’t I blogged about that subject? That’s actually a good question, one that is not easily answered, because quite frankly I haven’t really thought about it? Let me begin this by saying, I am fully aware that I don’t deserve the love, affection and attention of any beautiful woman (or honestly, any woman really?). There are so many single men out in the world looking for love just as I am. Younger, taller, more successful, and probably much more handsome than I. And they’re probably so confident about themselves, they don’t need to blog. So, oh yea, back to the question at hand, my dream girl? I’m basically looking for my best friend in life, someone to share all the experiences that still await me for however many years that I have left in this life. She doesn’t necessarily have to look at the world in the same exact way as I do, but it might help if many of our views and beliefs did have a lot in common (or at lease close to it anyways?). She’s obviously attractive, at least in my eyes (which is all that matters right?), and of course she’s affectionate and yes, passionate too. And not just passionate in bed, but also in the touching, the feeling, the kissing, even the simple action of holding hands. And passionate about her family too, her interests & hobbies, her goals, her career, and even her dreams yet to be realized. Basically, passionate about everything in her life. And of course, she’s someone that I miss when I’m not around her, and that I can’t wait to race home to at night.
So is there a woman out there that fits the vision that I have of my “dream girl”? I at one time, did have that in my life, and I’m very fortunate that I did get to experience that incredible feeling. There’s nothing like it. And since then, I’ve met some extraordinary women in this new journey of mine over the past couple of years, in my clumsy attempts to find that special bond again. And like me, they too are also searching for the right person in their lives, their fit. And I hope they find him, in all honesty I have no doubt that they will (probably before I will actually?). I may not have been the right person for them, but I have learned something about myself from those experiences, which I will always be grateful for. That it’s okay to be disappointed, it’s okay to put yourself out there and yea, and perhaps even be rejected. But that’s life, and as they say, what doesn’t kill us only makes us stronger right? (hello, I said right?). And their lasting friendships will always mean the world to me, so I hope I at least don’t blow that? And I’m also wise enough to know that I’ve definitely made some mistakes over time (I’m sure my ex-wife would be glad to give you a list of those?), but the good thing about making mistakes is, you have the opportunity to learn from them. I seriously hope I have, I think I have? If nothing else, day by day I can see, in every moment there’s a reason to carry on. To keep my heart open to that possibility that she’s still out there?
So basically to answer the question, my “dream girl” will not only be my friend, but she will be my very best friend in life. Someone that I can see within her eyes, the love and care that she has for me as well. She doesn’t necessarily have to be the most attractive woman to others, but she will no doubt be to me. Someone that for everything that I do, will always take me home to her. My forever and ever, someone who will give me more than just memories. So is she out there?, and have I already met her?, or is she someone that I have yet to see? Seriously, I’m asking, because I don’t know the answer? The only thing I do know is, that I’m tired. I’m getting older. And I don’t know how much longer I can hold out hope?