“It’s late in the evening, she’s wondering what clothes to wear. She puts on her make-up and brushes her long blonde hair. And then she asks me do I look all right? And I say yes, you look wonderful tonight. We go to a party and everyone turns to see, this beautiful lady that’s walking around with me. And then she asks me do you feel all right? And I say yes, I feel wonderful tonight.” This Eric Clapton song has always been one of my favorites. It basically tells a story about a guy who feels so very fortunate to be with someone that he thinks is the most beautiful person that he knows, and how wonderful that she makes him feel. Well, at least that’s my interpretation of it, I’m sure others might have their own version of the lyrics? And let me first say that my last blog wasn’t about anyone in particular other than me and my own stigma of why am I so fortunate in life? I’ve just always been one of those people that has had somewhat of an inferiority complex I suppose? You know how some might go thru life and something bad or negative happen to them, and then exclaim “I didn’t deserve this”? Well, I’m actually the opposite. Anything good that’s ever happened to me in my life, whether it was the luck of a great job offer, overcoming a major cancer scare, or even a beautiful woman being interested in me, that’s always been my first ‘go-to’ reaction – “what did I do to deserve this?”. In all seriousness, I don’t know why I’m wired that way? Could be genetics?, or just some type of childhood mental trauma that I’ve blocked perhaps? Either way, it’s not a positive thing to have, but I guess you could say that it does help to keep me humbled, grounded and genuinely appreciative of everything good that has come my way in life (deserved or not?).
And I have been fortunate to have dated some very beautiful women throughout my life, including this past year since I’ve been newly single. The very latest one that I’ve been in somewhat of a dating relationship with coincidentally does have long blonde hair, and I’ve actually watched her put on her make-up as she brushes her hair. And dammit, did she look wonderful while doing it (seriously, what she does with her eyebrows and lashes is straight out of a fashion magazine). I know women seem to have this stigma of taking too long to get ready at times, but honestly it’s always worth it right?, at least to me it is. Because I absolutely love it when I do go out to dinner, a bar, or a party where there’s other people around, when everyone turns to see this beautiful lady that’s walking around with me. And that’s when I can see the men’s eyes as they look up and down at my date that evening, with their gaze of “DAMN”!, followed by probably thinking to themselves “wait, she’s with him?” Hell, I’ve been there before myself and wondered the same thing, who hasn’t right? So all this just to say, even though I will probably always feel like I’m not worthy of any beautiful woman’s attention (deserved or not), I’ll gladly take it and hope she doesn’t come to her senses anytime soon. And until then, I’ll be feeling wonderful tonight.